I fell in a hole...

Before I continue with the past events I would just like to report on a little accident i had yesterday. To begin, I went for dinner at the Korean language teachers house with a woman from the nursery and some other people, but I didn`t know who they were. To be honest I felt too tired to be there, for one thing I had to leave my house at 5pm but because we were too early we had to wait until 6pm at some clothes store. After picking him up we drove to the house and pretty nothing happened until 9pm when we ate. The wait for the food wasn`t too bad because I wasn`t that hungry anyway, but the problem was that none of them could speak hardly any English, so they were having their conversation in Japanese, while I was pretty much falling asleep. I don`t want to sound disrespectful because I am pleased that I was invited to dinner, but this weekend I have been feeling really tired and when i`m doing nothing for 5-6 hours (we left around 11ish) it kinda gets to you. By the way the dinner wasn`t the accident :P The accident in question was after we left and went back to the car. I was waiting for the woman to pull the car out of the drive and I thought it would be a good idea to sit on the step that was below the pavement next to a big field, the only problem was that as it was almost pitch black I failed to realise that in between the upper and lower level was a big hole that travelled around the side. Unlucky for me I managed to go in the center, scraping my arm down the side of the wall and banging my knee on the edge, which left me with a big and very red graze on my arm, also I find it pretty difficult to walk without any pain.

Its times like this that you wish you just said no...

Now thats dealt with I can continue..

After kagoshima, which was from Tuesday to Thursday in Golden Week (its not really golden "week" its more like Golden three days, although technically its only 2 special days, one which is the death of an emperor on the 5th and one which is childrens day on the 7th, but for some reason if there are 2 holidays the day in between must also be classed as a holiday, dont ask me why)

Ok, now after Golden 2 days + 1 day = Week I went on a suprise trip to Haus Tein Bosch with Yukari. It was a suprise because she booked the trip and I either knew that we were going there or some other places we had looked at, but once we were on the train, the conductor kindly informed us on the tannoy. Haus Tein Bosch is like a section of Holldand that has been taken out of Holland and placed in Japan (if you have ever been to Epcot center you will know what I mean) although its kinda of like an emphasised sterotypical holland, but trust me im not complaining because it was a beautiful place, with great buildings, scenery, food and rides (the rides were like movie things, not rollercoasters). It was so great been there with my girlfriend, just walking about, going for cheese fondue and hiring a 2 seater bike, which was fun until the theory of woman been bad drivers came into effect and we went straight into a barrier and I went straight into the fake steering wheel, but no harm no foul.

The hotel we stayed in was amazing, we even had out luggage taken to our room and the view from the window contained all you could want, the sea, mountains, windmills, flowers, european houses. Also on the night we watched the fireworks from the window, which was the suprise of "the biggest flowers in the world". Every suprise that Yukari had planned was amazing and it was one of the best holidays ever, even though it was only for 2 days.

It was also a sad holiday because on the tuesday Yukari would have to go to America for 2 months, so it would be the last time I would see her for awhile. I think this is why things were alittle tense on the Sunday night when I had to leave because everything was getting to me, homesick, Yukari leaving and the nursery and I just wanted to have an extra day to think things through and talk with one of my friends, who offered for me to stay at his house. But as my Japanese isn`t so good and the boss of the nurseries English is 0 I had to have my friend ring to explain, but as she didn`t answer the phone we had to call Etsuko from the church, which ended up that I had to come home. The next day I had to have another exciting meeting about been bad and been told that I can`t go to see Yukari at the airport on the tuesday and that raised the temperature even more, because although I try to keep things as balanced as I can here it doesn`t seem to work and I was ready to pack my bags on the night and go stay with my friend for a few days and then try get an apartment with what I had, but after talking with Yukari we deicided that I would stay in Nogata because I didnt have enough money to leave right now. In July when she comes back maybe I will get my own apartment for the remaining 2 months, because now I feel uncomfortable some of the time and been with Yukari helps alot, its especially bad when I see her on the weekends then I dont get to see her again for awhile. If I do leave I don`t want things to end badly with the nursery so that it would be a problem for any other GAP placement following mine, but I am not the first person to leave, because about a year ago some GAP volunteer called Richard also left after only a few weeks. Im not saying what I want to do is justified, but to be honest there is no point in staying at the nursery if its going to make me unhappy and begin to cause alot of problems when Yukari comes back. In short its what I want to do even if things get better here, as my reason for coming to Japan was to have more freedom and experience new things and although in July they have summer time, which means I might have more time off anyways, I would rather be with my girlfriend and friends.

Saying that I can`t tell the future so maybe it will happen, maybe it won`t, so until it happens I can`t say if I will leave or not.... but its going to bloody interesting to find out ;)