Do you ever get the feeling....

Do you ever get the feeling that your life is like a snowball which is rolling very fast down a very big hill and you hit every rock as you go down?

Its a wierd simile, but at the moment that what I feel like. After the "incident" things were starting to get abit better, but during the course of getting a girlfriend I seemed to anger afew people that I didn`t think would have been affected by it. Take for instance Yuka (the girl that I went to the cinema with) after we went to the cinema we didn`t see each other again, but we still kept in contact via email, until she found out that I had made a girlfriend, then things started to go abit ... I knew that she only wanted to be friends, but because I liked her and then abit after I got a girlfriend, she thinks that I am a playboy (which is in a way is quite a funny thing to compare me with) She really seems to hate me because of it and at times its kind of confusing, partly because of the language barrier, but also because of the gender barrier. So the current news with Yuka is that she never wants to see me again and although I doubt that we might have met again anyway it still saddens me to lose a friend.

Moving on.... I have been extremely nervous on how Emiko was feeling about this because I had emailed her a few times and she hadnt replied and I thought that she didn`t want to speak to me as well because she is Yuka`s friend. The last time that I saw Emiko was about 2 weeks ago and I really miss seeing them and its hard to understand how everyone is feeling, but to be honest I didn`t think me getting a girlfriend would have affected so many other people. Although I was relieved when Emiko replied and told me that she had just been busy, but its still hard when I dont see her or her family as much.

Hopefully people will forgive me for trying to be happy and lets hope the snowball　slows down.....